Anxiety Dissorder

[Bubbs]

Been suffering with anxiety/panic attacks for the past 5 years and just wondering if anyone else here does.

My anxiety started due to over indulgence in ecstasy tabs, alcohol, and weed. Apparently the pills I dropped were laced with heroin and I had a very horrible experience and freaked out. Ended up having a huge panic attack (first ever one) that lasted 6-7hours before finally passing out, awoke in an ambulance on the way to the hospital. Docs took my blood and told me the oxygen content of my blood was stupidly high due to the panic breathing. Also found about 7-8 different types of drugs in my system. I honestly thought I was dying.

That was 4years ago and now I am constantly in a state of anxiety. Been to CBT and that helped loads but still fall into a rut every so often. I'm in a rut at the moment with a huge knot in my stomach/chest and just a feeling of being a little mental.

If any of you do suffer, or have suffered with this pain in the ass disorder I was wondering if you had any tips etc? Or just to hear your story would be good.


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[Bubbs]

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I'm sure there's people on here who will want to disagree with what i'm about to say and give their opinions on how these drugs are good for peoples minds and arent harmful at all ..but what i can tell you from experience is that once youve been damaged by these kinds of drugs you never truly get back to being normal and ,in some way, you will always be a mess.

The damage has been done now, its too late for normality to be regained, so the best you can do now is to learn to deal with the after effects and accept that you've fucked yourself up.
Good luck , you'll need it.
Welcome to the 'head-in-a-shed' club

[Bubbs]

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[evoboy]

I used to have it quite badly when i was a bit younger.

Stuck in my house for 8months.
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[Fawbish]

Yeah, but whats your definition or 'sane', or 'normal'?

Yeah, we wont go there again.


Time heals everything unless you're a complete pussy.

Hardxcore!
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[killa]

I once went to an outdoor rave thing and it was all a bit last minute. I scored some E from some gentleman who actually told me the were laced with brown but i took 2 off him anyway and off i went. (twat)
I wasn't well at all afterwards, id bitten the whole inside of my mouth, the come down lasted a week but i was ok shortly after. Since then, no pills. That was about 6 years ago.

Must admit, never had a panic attack, although anxiety has got the better of me on the odd occasion. I think my defense has been how Hetz described it, i dont let it in, so to speak.
I know it's bullshit and im better than that so i train my brain to cope and tell it to fuck off.
My best advice, which often is ignored, is to not seek any 'pro' help straight away (not saying you have). Do this alone, obviously use common sense when i say this...if you're staying in doors because of it and thinking really horrible thoughts about yourself and others then yeah maybe get talking to someone.
One thing can lead to another during 'professional' help though, you can become 'used' to just being as you say you are 'anxious'.

I really believe a nice change of scenery is best, get out on a few days out, anywhere of interested really...maybe take something up you've always wanted to...i took up Lomography recently (old skool russian camera stuff).

Your mind is your friend, learn from your mistakes, make up and move on....it will help you out. I've found myself suddenly out of a little bout of anxiety about things in my life and i've hardly noticed im out of it. Everyone, drugs or not will at some stage in their life suffer from stress/anxiety so it's up to you if you believe Devils advocate if you want to describe it as 'messed up'.
Opinions are like ass holes, everybodys gotta have one.
He may view it as messed up, but ive never had any regrets to the things drugs have opened my mind to...no one can take that away from me and im not ashamed ive taken things to the limit. I do it on my bike, i do it with drugs, either way its my character and how i want to walk my path.
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[Bubbs]

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[Bubbs]

[killa]

[Robby]

Different things work for different people. I would probably never had got medicated if I hadn't seen how different things could be on drugs.

That said, now I am medicated I don't take drugs. My meds blocking the effects of coke, ket, and probably acid and amplifiying (to a damaging level) the effects of speed and MDMA makes it very easy to abstain.

I'd say go see a psychiatrist, but make sure you see a good one - this generally means private at around £100+ per session. Your local NHS trust may have access to decent psychiatrists, but they tend to refer all mental health stuff through their quick response teams and such, which are geared up for dealing with people who are seriously schizophrenic, psychotic, bipolar or depressed.

Anxiety is easily dealt with thorugh meds, if meds are the best way to treat you - in many cases counselling makes you worse, particularly if you've found your own ways to be vaguely normal over many years. You don't want to change them, which is why you see a decent shrink who will know what to do, not a junior psychiatric nurse with a box of tissues and a chair near the door.

Off the tops of my head anxiety often goes hand in hand with low grade depression and can be treated with a wide range of drugs. SSRIs (citalopram, fluoxetine, sertraline), SNRIs (I think mirtazapine), MAOIs (generally not used if avoidable) and probably lamotrigine (no one knows why it works, it's an anticonvulsant, but seems to be a bit of a psych wonder drug at the moment).

A good shrink will cost the earth and be worth every penny. Worth getting decent health insurance before diagnosing, if it isn't on your medical record yet.

[Leviathan91]

[Fawbish]

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[No More Names ......]

Max Weirdo !! ..

It's only oneself that defines who we are by what we think, but in reality no ones a fly on your brain wall, and the less thinking the better, and the more doing ... others define you by what you do, not what you think ...

You can't change the past, yet we try as the past shapes most of our lifes, when we do manage to shake of the past or at least find a place for it to sit and bubble at most, then we have more time and motivation to do the things that really define us, instead of going round in circles of repetitive renumeration making unnecessary conclusions and doing very little ...

Hetz .. wtf is this afterlife you speak of ...
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[Neorion]

I have been on inderala for years, went through really unhealthy relationship with a girl years ago and kept pushing my personal boundries on what I would accept even though I was being abused mentally.

She drank a lot and was a headfuck basically and I kept trying to help her, when she was sweet she was brilliant when she wasn't she was a cnut. I kept putting myself out there until it made me physically ill.

Only came to a head when I thought I was having a heart attack in work and was rushed to hospital when my muscles stopped working and my face started to spasm SCARY!

once we were finished I spoke with a pro who talked me through it all and helped a lot.
I was offered antidepressants but turned them down and instead took beta blockers for the panic / anxiety they help a lot so much so I stopped taking them.

Started up again when work was stressful as it can be and went back on them.

I get them when I am tired or hungover in busy public places, they make everything seem 2D and lifeless, cant think or function I have walked out of a restaurant on my girlfriend and a mate it was that bad. I had missed the tablets for a few days as I had been fine.

I am not saying that's the answer but to be honest they help me everyday and its only one in the morning.


It is hard to talk yourself down sometimes so I sympathise with you but you need to stay calm and breath normally if your out and about try retying your shoes laces a couple of times, sounds weird but you can get your head straight and carry on.


Its tough mate but I would say you should speak with your GP and try beta blockers and speak to someone they really do help the physical aspect.

Only you know your own attacks and thoughts but a pro can help you make sense of them and let you take a step back.

Good luck and you can Pm me if you want more info on my own experience
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[Clanger]

After my bike accident, I suddenly started suffering panic attacks... the first one I had was one day after I'd got to work. I had no idea what was going on, my heart felt as if it was going to punch its way out of my body...

Luckily a colleague was there, and she talked me through it... and calmed me down (as I was a bit worried). I had a few attacks thereafter, but because I knew what it was...I was able to sit it out, and control my breathing and calm down.

Nothing ever seemed to provoke it...I made a note of when and what I was doing, and there wasn't a pattern. I cannot even remember when they stopped or when I last had one.
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[crowe]

I've lived with Anxiety for years and found the following most helpful:

Read enjoyable books: a great distraction of negative thoughts especially at night when your mind wanders, plus helps you fall asleep.

Exercise:Train your body hard and heal your mind (jogging is great and is therapeutic).

Tell People: Don't hide it, real friends/family will understand.

Befriend Anxiety: Its a natural friend, not a foe...it just got confused and needs your help to set itself straight

Self-Esteem : Your not crazy, your just thinking things through in a different perspective. You got into this train of thought you will get out of it.

I used to worry much more about what other people will think of me rather than 'oh my god i'm going to die' but in reality loads of people have mental issues and, unfortunately, loads don't do anything about it (unlike you!). Thanks for being open and honest mate i'm sure you'll get your head sorted soon enough

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