feeling depressed

[jaded eyes]

(Posting under an alias account because i dont want people i know to find this)

So about 4 months ago (lost count now) my girlfriend left me. About a month after she left me i started cutting myself. Not trying to kill myself, but the pain was a distraction to everything. Anyway told my ex for some reason because i wanted someone to talk to, was told to fuck off and then she told all my friends. so then my friends come over and started demanding to see my arms... Showed them my wrists, but that wasnt where i was cutting anyway...
After that i just stopped cutting.

Soi spent the next couple of weeks severely depressed. I tried to get my life back on track and forget about everything, even went out on a date with someone else, but then it just feels like im trying to replace my ex...
then a couple of days ago i was arguing with my mam (im 18 and live with her) and the arguing got really bad. She threatened to call the police, and then 10 minuits later while im sat down enjoying a computer game
Now i pretty much hate my mam and genuinely could care if i never was to see her again. Background story on all this is that she told my girlfriend to leave me 2 weeks before she did and tried everything to break us up. She also threatens that her boyfriend will beat me up

lately ive just been wondering what is the point in carrying on anymore. None of my friends make the effort to bother with me anymore and i spend all my days off staring at a computer screen and refreshing BCF...
Worst part about everything is that i feel so alone. Some days i just wonder if i should just talk to my ex and try sort things out, but i guess things are too far past that now...

Guess this is just one of those threads with no real question, just feel like i have to get it all out there. If anyone has any advice though, please post it. any help from anyone whos ever been in this sort of situation would be appreciated..

[Ariel Badger]

So what advice do you want? Carry on cutting or stop cutting? Get out there and get a life or be a little bitch and cry yourself to sleep? You are 18, get over it.
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[P.addy]

Rise above it, life is too short.

< That is me when I'm most happy... you are pretty much alone in that helmet

I rarely see people these days, but less people = less bother for me. Lets me live my life. True I may sound like a miserable bastard... but lets face it, I'd rather be happy with my own existence and not being hassled by lifes trivial things such as Facebook and shit than trying to live by someone elses expectations and the way they live.

Since I left social networking stuff... I've been alright.

I was chucked in a nut job place when I was 21 because I threatened to kill myself and was grabbed by police before I jumped from a bridge into busy motorway traffic. I was having a bad time with my life, being told I have a tumour, ruining my life by basically being a bastard to others and feeling completely lost and unwanted.

Believe me, if you start thinking about getting your own life on track, ignoring those who take the piss, even though it hurts..you'll soon realise you are far better than them.

Also.. you may "dislike" your mum, but deep down, you don't.

Make peace with your family, anything could happen tomorrow... I would know, I lost my brother last week literally 2 days after he apologised to my mum for ignoring her, even had a decent convo with him. Despite the distinct lack of communication over a year.. my mum/dad were both utterly devastated... So regardless of whether you hate her/she hates you.. arguments are only tiny things compared to feelings.

Bear it in mind!

[bikertomm]

Just to add really, I imagine at this point in time you're really fucked off.

In a few months time you might look back and be like what the fuck was I thinking.


Think of the good times mate, there's a lot of shit but rise above it, I find taking the piss out of everything that goes wrong helps. Live for the good times, and fuck everything else.

Even just try focusing on doing one thing, like saving up to get a bike or whatever you want.

Hang on in there pal
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[jaded eyes]

[J.M.]

PM me if you need. Been through/going through the same and the same age as you
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[Ariel Badger]

[bikertomm]

Just watch the Jeremy Kyle show, it will make you appreciate your life
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[jaded eyes]

[Polarbear]

[Polarbear]

anyway, the bear says, don't come on BCF and expect too much sympathy.
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[Joenitro]

I know you probably feel like shit but self pity isn't the answer. Your only young so do something about it.
Start training, go on the sunbed, get your hair done nice and buy some good clothes. That will bring your confidence back and set you on the right track to finding a decent bird and forgetting about your ex. We've all been through it, kid, and it really hurts but only you can drag yourself out of it.

[JonB]

Sort your life out. You will encounter far more horrific things throughout your life than breaking up with a girlfriend at 18.

Emo.
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[nowhere.elysium]

Breaking up with a girlfriend at the grand old age of 18 is not the same as having one's life ruined. Cutting is the act of an attention seeker, too. I'm a manic depressive, and even I reckon you need to grow a pair and move on. As Paddy's post illustrates, there are far bigger things to get worked up about in life.

Given your age, I can't imagine that you were even together that long: as such, stop acting like it's a twenty year marriage that's broken down.

If you think your mother is overbearing and prone to interfering in your life, move out. Where there's a will, there's a way.
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[Flatbadger]

Stop concentrating on where you want to be, and appreciate where you are now. Learning to be content with what you have is a useful skill which will see you OK.

Nothing wrong with dreaming but investing emotionally is never a good idea if you're chucking good 'money' after bad.

And as for cutting yourself - don't be a twat! You mentioned it to her as you thought she'd feel sorry for you and get back with you, right? No wonder it backfired, that's really manipulative - I'd have certainly told you to fuck off too.

Date other girls, enjoy their company and see it as a chance for a nice drink and chat, nothing more.

Regarding your mum, no comment as I have no idea of her reasons for doing what she did.
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[J.M.]

[MCW]

Attention seeking is often a cry for help. It pisses me off when people say 'only a cry for help', or 'only attention seeking'.

What Paddy said about families.

I think you should go to the doctor and discuss how you're feeling (this is not a one-way ticket to a mental institution). Sometimes something like a break-up can trigger a spiral of stuff, some of it absolutely unrelated. You seem to be going into an emotional nose-dive that you need help to get out of.

All this talk about manning the eff up. The bravest thing is to admit you need help. The next bravest thing is to do something about it.

[neatbik]

Just remember this.... You managed fine without her before you met her... Just because you arent with her anymore doesent mean that life is just destined to be shit for evermore.

Without trying to sound condascending mate, its something that we all go through. I've been there a few times in the past. But the truth is you will meet someone else in good time and your thoughts of your ex wont bother you one bit then.

As for the situation with your mum - If its that bad then get yourself out of there.
Bottom line is you are young, dont waste your youth being miserable, because before you know it you will wake up one day not so young anymore and wonder why the fuck you wasted it.

[jaded eyes]

[ocatoro]

nobody, no matter how much grief they cause you, is worth cutting yourself much less killing your self.

a) go see a doctor and get some pills

b) get off the computer, get outdoors and do something. ride your bike, go somewhere interesting.

c) try something new. take up boxing, or jiu jitsu, or something else.... the exercise will help your head, and you'll make new friends who have a more positive input than the ones currently ignoring you.
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[Lord Percy]

Pretty shocked to see certain dickheads here taking the "well that's not what I would do because I'm so tough" attitude. We're all different, don't forget.

My honest advice to anyone who's genuinely unhappy and totally lost for what to do, is to escape, literally. Save up and fuck off!!!

If you're not working....... find ANY job, or hmmmm sign on, and in about 2 or 3 months, as long as you treat your money as untouchable, you'll have a at leat few hundred quid, and that can get you a long way in some countries. (India you can volunteer and live with hippies for £100 a month, or less if you tell them you have no money).

[jaded eyes]

[Bubbs]

[Lord Percy]

Well then bud, just keep in mind that the world is gigantic, you're an amoeba on it and you are in no way glued to any of your immediate problems, so stay optimistic and remember the bad times are simply part of the route towards the good times!